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Taran

Fri May 12, 2006, 7:14 AM
In the Sanskrit language there is a very expressive word for freedom: Taran, which means 'liberation,' 'swimming,' or 'floating.' And it is such a beautiful idea that both these things, swimming and liberation, are alike in their nature.

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It's an odd thing, being an "art" model.

"Art" being a loose term for (willing to get nekkid). You cease to have ownership over your body in certain ways. Not only do photographers ask you to get into positions and hold your body in contortions that may not be comfortable *at all*, not only do you at times sign a model's release giving up rights to those images, but you can also start to change some of the thinking you've had about your body, and what it means to be "yours". Now don't get me wrong...my body is MINE. But images of my naked bod are "out there"...in photographers' galleries, in their livejournals, in their online portfolios.

And all of a sudden your body, the "you" that you have been used to being ceases in a certain way.

It's empowering and a little disconcerting at the same time.

Think about it.

All those years of body issues, alternately hiding or playing up body parts with strategic clothing choices, playing up features and hoping no one sees your stomach/legs/rolls.

And then there it is. Your 250+lb body...naked and permanently captured.

And you're o.k. with it. Because you have made the choice to FINALLY be o.k. with it.

And yet, it's not just you and the photographer seeing you in all of your nakedness. All of sudden there is the possibility of countless people that you do not know about seeing your naked body.

Some of them may appreciate it.
Some of them may find it unappealing.
Some of them are aroused.
Some are turned off.
Some want more.
Some turn away.
Some will call it art.
Some will call it porn.


All have an opinion about *you*....and your nakedness.

And you know what? For me , this is a statement, this getting "nekkid".

I have a choice at this point in my life.

I can love my body and appreciate it.
I can say *fuck you* to those who have left me feeling "less than" because I'm "more than".
I can just "be".

So I'm being.

And I am finally owning by body by not letting it be mine

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  • Current Residence: NYC
  • Interests: Pushing boundaries, taking risks, exploring and seeking within...growing
  • Favourite genre of music: I'm an aging goth at heart (but listen to a fair variety)
  • Favourite poet or writer: Far too many to list, poetry is how I find my soul. Neruda, Cummings, Hafez, Rumi, Levertov
  • Favourite photographer: melvin moten jr., brian rawson
  • Operating System: whichever runs the computer I'm currently on...
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  • Shell of choice: seashells...
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  • Favourite game: mindgames (of course)
  • Favourite cartoon character: Rogue
  • Personal Quote: Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage - Anais Nin
  • Tools of the Trade: sparkling wit, a dirty mouth, a keen mind, caffeine and lots and lots of makeup

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Wonderful, wonderful :gallery:

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Don't sweat the petty things....and don't pet the sweaty things. ~George Carlin

The sea monkey has my wallet.... ~Dori the fish... "Finding Nemo"
the nereid pic is one of the the best stock pic i have seen in a long time keep doing pics like that and you will stand out from the others(love it)it nice to see full figure woman take control of what they were bless with and that a full beautiful body(don't like saying big)and you have that control[link]
I so appreciate you journal entry of Fri May 12, 2006, titled "Taran". I only wish that there were more of your "sisters" who felt the same. This statement had to be very empowering for you. I love what you do and your reasons for doing it. Kudos. :hug:

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I'm looking for a GREAT picture no matter what size the woman is... no matter how OLD they are.
Thank you Charlie. I appreciate your continued support and encouragement.

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And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
Anais Nin
Your so very welcome. I just have to get you to Michigan or me to New York for a shoot with you. Either that or clone you. :grin:

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I'm looking for a GREAT picture no matter what size the woman is... no matter how OLD they are.

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